Relive The Past

Looking at what I have now and what I used to have in the past... some said men tend to be longing for single life, and why not? Carefree, enjoy life to the fullest, going out with pretty ladies, having guys night out etc... I'll say most men, if not all, would love to repeat that part of life (exception will be made to less sociable folks, nothing wrong with being so by the way)

Being human, we want something different from what we currently have. We want those moments when we have less things to take care of and less responsibility. But do we really want to go that path again? We mostly remember, and rightfully, only the good nice sweet memories that make us smile. But is that all?

Being married, I lost all privileges single man has (happily conceding those :D ). I can't freely hang out with my friends on weeknights because my wife waiting at home, can't spend money without second thought (not with some other routine needs or some expense in the future), no more guys night out, etc etc...

Seems like a loss? Not really! I can still remember those good times, but I can also recall those blue nights when I was all alone in my room with no one to hold dear. Might have a crush on someone who doesn't respond to my feeling. Might have no one at all. Those boys might be busy with exams, works, and their personal things. Those lonely times kill!

So let's see if I really want to relive my past...
1. Now : having a wife. Previously : ask any pretty single girl to go out for dinner or movies. Choice : I have my wife to go out for food or movies, she's a fun person to hang out with. Plus other girls in the past left me broken hearted a few times. My wife certainly won't do so (cross my finger :D )
2. Now : Go home after office. Previously : Hang out with friends sometimes after office hour. Choice : This one is tricky, but as we age, our friends have their own personal life and can't go out as often as they wanted in the past, the same situation with us. So some occasions when I have my free time, I ask them to hang out (probably once every 2-3 months), not enough actually, but this is one of the compromise you have to make in life.
3. Dunno what to write for now and previously, but I know that I won't need to be lonely anymore or feeling sorry for my life (cause my life is GREAT!)

So the answer is NO. I love my past, I had such a great moments, learning from my mistakes, finding out what made me sad or happy... I'll leave my past as a lesson and as a diary I can always turn page to... It will make me smile... But I live in the present and aiming for the future.... Don't try to find the so-called former glory... cause there's a reason it's called FORMER :)